11 Nov 2011 | Posted by: Jaeson | Categories: Blog


Today I turn 31 on 11.11.11. Some people say when you see 11:11 on a clock you should make a wish. I’ve been seeing 11:11 my whole life and every time I do see it, I don’t wish but I pray for one thing, that I may know Jesus more.

I’ve lived 30 years and I pray if I am given another 30 years or more, that my only aim is to know Him more, the power of His resurrection and to fellowship with Him in His sufferings. I pray I will love Him more intensely and passionately the day I die than I do right now. Love grows with time. I pray my love for my Lord and Savior Jesus will grow with each day. Why do I love Him? Because He first loved me. Why do I want to die knowing Him? Because Jesus died to know me. Why do I want to serve Him all my days? Because Jesus sacrificed all and laid down His life to serve me. Why do I want to preach the Gospel? Because Jesus suffered, died and resurrected so that all could be forgiven of sin and be reconciled to the Father. Why do I thank Him? Because every time I fail Him His love never fails me. Why do I praise Him? Because He is so good to me and His love is crazy for me. Why do I worship Him? Because Jesus is King if kings, Lord of lords, Prince of peace. Why would I live for anything else but Him? If Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, then why live for anything else? Or even waste our time on anything else?

I pray I will look more and more like Him with each passing day. Am I perfect? No, I am human. But my goal is to be just like Jesus. I’m a far way off, trust me, I have bones in the closet that I’m not proud of. These past few years I’ve lost my way from the pure and simple devotion to Jesus Christ that I once knew. Sometimes you get so caught up with yourself, what you want to do for Jesus that you lose Jesus and in the process lose yourself. Sadly, that’s been my story, but that is not the end of my story. Today I turn 31 and today I set my heart like flint to know and follow hard after You. Today I surrender myself at the foot of the cross and commit my life again into the loving care and discipline of God. Today I choose to love You above all else.

Give me one pure and holy passion. Give me one magnificent obsession. Give me one glorious ambition for my life. To know and follow hard after you.

32 Responses to "11.11.11"

  1. Hanna
    November 11, 2011

    Every day is a chance to love more, to grow closer to God.
    Happy Birthday :)

  2. November 11, 2011

    Happy birthday Jaeson. Even though we’ve never met personally, you were the person who sparked a spiritual awakening in my heart when I saw you at the 1040 tour. Your passion for your One True Love is an inspiration to me and my friends. God bless.

  3. Chris
    November 11, 2011

    Jaeson Ma. You are cool (not sarcasm). Keep doing what you’re doing brother.

  4. tom
    November 11, 2011

    Jaeson, Your blog calls me back to – the essentials of Christ-like walk… the humility that gives way to restoration and the longing that takes a man back to his Savior’s side. Happy 31st Birthday. Your brother, Tom

  5. Amanda
    November 11, 2011

    Happy Birthday & God bless. :]

  6. Steve Lee
    November 11, 2011

    That’s right brother.
    Let’s get to know him better with every passing second. God burns with His desire for our heart. We so know it. But the question is does our heart also burn for His? Something to think about. God is most glorified in us when we’re most satisfied in Him. _John Piper

  7. Alexandra
    November 11, 2011

    Happy Birthday Pastor Jaeson.. Praying for you..

  8. November 11, 2011

    “‘I know your works, your toil and your patient endurance, and how you cannot bear with those who are evil, but have tested those who call themselves apostles and are not, and found them to be false. I know you are enduring patiently and bearing up for my name’s sake, and you have not grown weary. But I have this against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first. If not, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you repent…He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To the one who conquers I will grant to eat of the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.’” Revelation 2:2-5,7

    This scripture came to mind while reading this post. Praying for you and your family brother. :)

  9. God Chaser
    November 11, 2011

    Happy belated blessed birthday! :) Keep this love going…

  10. Ida
    November 11, 2011

    Jaeson, how are you feeling today? I know you may find it strange, but I have been thinking about you often recently. To you, I am probably just one of thousands of your ‘fans’. Yesterday (my time 11-11-11) I was talking to one of the youth used to attend my church group in Toronto and now a university sophomore about the ministry, visions, passion and you & your work. We both feel refreshed and excited when looking forward into the future how God might do his great work on us.

    Though you haven’s shared much about the details of your struggles, I can sense it when reading your recent blogs. This morning during my daily devotion, I was praying and asking God how I should pray for you. This is the message I received:

    Joshua 5:13-15 At the beginning of Joshua’s ministry, he needed to fight a strong city of Jericho when he saw the visions of a man standing in front of him with a drawn sword in his hand. That’s the Commander of the Army of the Lord. Not Joshua… And he asked Joshua to take of his dirty sandals for the place he was standing was HOLY.

    I am not sure what you and your family you are going through. But on my own journey of following his calling, I have my moments at the edge of ‘breakdown’, full of doubts and weakness, feeling like a failure. I hope my prayers and sincere care would make you feel loved by God.

    Praying our Lord would make your birthday wishes come true!

  11. Lena
    November 11, 2011

    Take heart Pastor coz many are the afflictions of the righteous but the Lord God delivers him out of them all. None of his bones is broken. Just keep ur head fixed on Yeshua. My prayers go out for you and keep on the passion.

  12. cherieng
    November 11, 2011

    『and in this one body to reconcile both of them to God through the cross, by which he put to death their hostility.He came and preached peace to you who were far away and peace to those who were near』(Eph2:16-17)

  13. November 11, 2011

    Happy Birthday Jaeson!
    says that Your life is an open book in His sight. He formed you and knows you exactly inside out. His thoughts toward you are more than the sand in the sea.

    Keep seeking Him with all your heart.

    If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there;
    if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.

    May God bless your ministry and passion!

  14. Alanna
    November 12, 2011

    Happy Birthday Jaeson! I wish your dream and determination come true ! Hope that with your deeper love towards Jesus,we as a reader can somehow be encouraged and walk closer to him!

  15. November 12, 2011

    Jaeson, man, I just wanted to tell you, you’ve been a blessing to my life. Sometimes when I listen to your CD, I get ministered. When I read you blog it’s a blessing and I get ministered. This entry in particular makes me want to change my whole life and just surrender myself to be as similar to Christ as I possibly am.

    Thank a lot man, seriously, I was just almost in a gutter and reading this and listening to Glory has helped me a lot.

    God bless you and your family, I pray that Jesus helps you in all your problems, which I’m sure He will do.

  16. evelin
    November 13, 2011

    Happy birthday pastor Jaeson

  17. November 13, 2011

    Happy Birthday!!! What a great day to be born! I always read your web-site… I’ve started to read the ones from 2004 now! It’s like reading an exciting story that blesses you while reading it! God bless you!

  18. Jemima
    November 13, 2011

    Happy birthday Jaeson ma :)

  19. Eric
    November 13, 2011

    Yo Jaeson… you know Lecrae? “I don’t wish, I pray.”http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WsND3JCjCBA&feature=channel_video_title

  20. Rachel
    November 13, 2011

    Happy Birthday Jaeson! God bless you!

  21. HYBK
    November 14, 2011

    Happy be-lated birthday Jaeson! I like what you said here. It is a powerful message. I never thought of praying when it hits 11:11. But that is a great thing to do and to think of. You inspire us with your message. God is awesome! We all hope to see you grow more in God’s love…and not just you, but all of us too!

  22. Tif
    November 16, 2011

    birth,aging,sickness,death…c’est la vie. Along the path of life, painful scars accumulate; some can be seen with the naked eye & some cannot. So glad u post this message because for all those who care about u would want to know that u are okay. Keep smiling!

  23. Allie
    November 18, 2011

    Happy Belated birthday Jason, God Bless you eternally! You are so inspiring, reading these words make me feel so proud of my decision of following Jesus Christ and making him the center of my life. God is Grand. Keep up being a light and preeching the Great Words. Greetings from Central America, El Salvador<3

  24. Raxelle
    November 21, 2011

    i usually read your blog after seeing your posts or someone elses at twitter..but right now, there’s just this strong prompting (i believe it’s God’s whisper) to right away go to your site and read your posts and as always, everytime i read your blog, i am truly ministered and a renewed passion for Jesus rises up within me..and for that I thank you!I know this too is what God wants me to do..and like you, I pray the same, that I may know my God more and more..I really wonder how do you spend time with the Father, how do you relate with Him, how do you really feel about Him?..your declarations here are so intense and passionate!..please continue growing and going deeper in Him and please share more and more of the revelations you receive from our Father God..happy happy birthday Pastor Jaeson!..and oh, i just realized you’re 2 years younger than me, yet i could say you are more committed and passionate for Jesus than i do!..i am humbled but very encouraged!

  25. yethay
    November 24, 2011

    You always speak for me even though I can be your mum…O Lord, empower all your blood-washed, beloved children to hunger and thirst to know you more and to live our daily life more like Jesus, with signs and wonders following…O Lord Jesus, come, come quickly…we pant for more of you every second and every minute of our life here on earth…please come soon…meanwhile, change us and purify our mind, heart and soul…we surely want to be your light and salt in this world while we have our breath…come Jesus, speak and do through us by the power of your HS…come now in a mighty, glorious way…In Jesus mighty name, amen.

  26. November 25, 2011

    Happy be-lated b-day, just saw your blog entry. Love all that you do, your an inspiration to my life! God bless you brother.

  27. random
    November 25, 2011

    once he was like a vague figure in the distance…
    now you can hear His voice down the road…
    one day… you will see the wrinkles on His forehead…

  28. November 26, 2011

    Thank you for your honesty and your encouragement :-) I think your greatest strength as a minister is the honesty and openness that makes you so real to all who listen. I’m in China with my husband as God called me here & said he’d use my music here. I’ve also been diagnosed recently with an autoimmune disease. While I am longing for God to heal me, I’m longing for God to help me rejoice in my suffering as I know I can take part in what He has done. Thank you for being an awesome encouragement.

  29. December 4, 2011

    Always praying for the youth of our cities! Thanks bro. I hope your birthday this year was AWESOME. I had a really bad 1 on 10/28… =T Oh well! ~* =)

  30. Sara
    December 7, 2011

    This is Beautiful! I don’t know you, you may never read this, and I may never see you in person, but this “personal ramblings” of yours holds so much truth, so much passion and it’s voice shares the same voice of my heart. To offer my life, nail my own passions and desires for those to serve him well, to praise him, and speak of his name! As I grow more in my faith with Christ, do more, hear him more, I am constantly reminded to cloth myself with humility, because my own pride is one of my darkest enemies. Seeing that in reality I am a nobody, but because of him I am somebody. I have no confidence in myself, but because of who he is and what he has done, I have confidence in him who strengthens me. I’m tired of being a comfortable Christian… Many of us focus on our circumstances, lets focus our eyes on Him, plow towards Him to take us through our circumstances. Everyday I seek his face, I ask for more of Him, it’s exciting to see what he’ll do, what he’ll say, who I’ll meet! There is no meaning to life if your not living for Jesus. I only just heard about you a couple of days ago from a friend. Before God started speaking and making himself better known to me, I just wanted a simple life, now I have almost unthinkable passions… Passions to to preach, to sing, to write, to make videos, to make music, to be a servant. These are things your are doing, have been doing, and what I am about to do. Thank you Jaeson Ma, you are an encouragement to me.

  31. hannah
    January 14, 2013

    wow. amen. your personal wish to know god more is something that i desire as well. thank you for eloquently writing down in words, the desires of every man’s heart that wants to know god more. happy belated.

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